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elโ˜…'s avatar

the way every line is filled with suppressed rage, you can practically feel the presence of it, so sharp and yet so soft at places, your writing makes me feel things, so many emotions, I think I'll keep coming back to it when in need of reassurance, thank you for writing this<3

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

iโ€™m so glad it had that effect! i didnโ€™t think that anyone would resonate with my words enough to come back to it :โ€) that truly makes me so happy

thank you for reading ๐Ÿค

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jasminee's avatar

love every single line.. just wow

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

thank you <3

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the girls are not alright's avatar

Wow

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zรฉlia's avatar

oh how i love this as someone who walks with anger because of my environment growing up

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

๐Ÿซ‚

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lalie เผ‰โ€งโ‚Šหšโœง's avatar

thank you so much for this. it was absolutely beautiful and so so real. i loved how you put it into words!!! ๐Ÿค

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

thank you so much for reading <3

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String of Saturdays's avatar

I feel like I traveled to the edges of my shadows and came back reluctantly as I read this piece. It really took my breath away, how deeply I felt I the rage.

Thank you for this essay. I need it in my life.

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

this means more than i can say. iโ€™m so glad it found you and that you let it sit with you in those shadows. weโ€™re not alone in this ache <3 thank you for reading

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SeaGlass Letters's avatar

this was such a beautiful read!! "i hate how empathy clouds my fury." wow..!! xx

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

thank you! ๐Ÿค

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sedusbradshaw's avatar

Since I usually suppress my anger, Iโ€™ve realized that when Iโ€™m deeply triggered, I canโ€™t control my fight-or-flight response. The more you silence your screams, the less prepared you are for the rage that eventually erupts. Thatโ€™s why I avoid people who provoke that in me and protect my boundaries. Thank you for pointing out something so true.๐Ÿซก

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

this makes sense, now iโ€™m worried that someday my rage will erupt ๐Ÿ˜ญ thank you for reading <3

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Stelitodel18's avatar

Actually with this post a tear dropped ๐Ÿฅน

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

aww thank you for reading! honoured it made you feel something

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hannah's avatar

โ€œby years of swallowing what should be screamedโ€

OH MY GOSHH girl how do you come up with this stuff youโ€™re so good at this

this is also so so beautiful and the way you write anger in a different way just hits different

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

ahhh thank you so much! i just write what i know ๐Ÿค

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steinunn elna.'s avatar

This resonated in ways Iโ€™m not even ready to write about yet. But I will. Suppressed anger is definitely on my to-do list. Thank you for putting words to something that usually only shows up in my nervous system ๐Ÿคโœจ

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

thank you so much for reading ๐Ÿค iโ€™m glad i could put your feelings into words

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dhia โ‹†๏ฝก๐–ฆน หš ๐“‡ผ หš๏ฝกโ‹†'s avatar

reading this piece got me thinking that growing up, i was always an angry child. i can't help but got flashbacks every time i read your lines, which, for me, have truly resonated with me. i'm close to my twenties yet i still held the angry girl close to me.

my amygdala, the size of an almond nut, holds terrible temper but thankfully my prefrontal cortex is there just like you mentioned. i also learnt so many things to redirect my explosive temper into a calm and still sea. not in denial, only redirection. i don't want to waste my energy on something that is so ridiculous so i leave if the conversation clearly getting nowhere, if the person clearly not listening and if the relationship clearly sank before it even sailed.

thankyou for this thoughtful piece. as i too, "not a violent dog. i do not bite. i am not rabid. i am not irrational. but i am angry. and i am allowed to be. not because it is pleasant, not because it is easy. but because it is human. because it is honest. because some days, rage is the only evidence i have that i deserved better." we all desrve better. xx

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

thank you for reading! iโ€™d love to know about your experience and what you learned to redirect your anger, if you ever decide to write about it ๐Ÿซถ iโ€™m happy you resonated with this

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dhia โ‹†๏ฝก๐–ฆน หš ๐“‡ผ หš๏ฝกโ‹†'s avatar

thatโ€™s actually a wonderful idea, if im ever going to write it, i will put this piece as an inspiration of mine ๐Ÿ’ž

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virelle ๐Ÿ’Œ's avatar

iโ€™d be so honoured ๐Ÿฅน

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evangeline's avatar

holy shit

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saleena's avatar

This was genuinely so good! I am an angry person and I'm working so hard on trying to be better, and you've just put every emotion, every rage and every thought I have ever had into this article ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿฉท

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